Anyway, I can't wait for Monday.. .. Gonna spent the night with Ardy, Bernice, Nat and Wal.. .. I'm hopping that Man and Zy could join us too.. .. Nat's birthday falls on the 22nd so yeah, we're gonna celebrate it too.. .. Despite 23rd being my birthday, I really don't feel like celebrating because a year older means a year short of reaching my goals before a certain age.. .. I desperately need a career, financial security and ultimately, a stable and happy relationship.. .. None of which I have.. .. Sadly, I'm still hung over my ex despite his friend telling me that me and him, it's never gonna happen.. .. It's easy for me to move on with life but it's impossible for me to forget him.. .. Forget this love and deep feelings I have for him.. ..
Enough about him.. .. I need to work on my goals fast and time is running!! Already, a number of my friends are starting families.. .. Talk about peer pressure.. .. Marriage is obviously not as simple as the inclination to smoke or drink because your friends are doing it.. .. The idea is tempting, yes but it's not a simple thing to actualize.. .. Career wise, I still don't know if this kitchen life is meant for me.. .. I simply cannot imagine myself as a chef, slogging hard even when I'm 40.. .. I need a back up plan, as my mom repeatedly tells me.. .. She wants me to go back to school, take up a different course and get myself a regular office job.. .. My dad on the other hand wants me to start a business.. .. Maybe I will but I guess I should focus on completing my internship first.. .. It's kinda sad that my friends are ending theirs next month and I still have five months left.. .. I so cannot wait to go up to that stage in ceremonial gown, receiving my well deserved diploma.. .. I hope time will fly by!!
I'm forever yours, faithfully ; 8:53 PM
